ABOUT ME

Friday, October 15, 2004

any idea how it feels like to have sleepless nights
just because you're afraid of closing your eyes.
not wanting to awake up to face a new day
cause it seems like the end of the world.


you beg for the devils to take you to hell
but you just gotta live on.
you hope for God to let you see light
but what surrounds you is nothing but darkness.




nothing'll be the same anymore.
i've gotta get used to a new kinda life style.


its all my fault


i didn hold on tight to what i had
i let it go just like that.



i deserve it.



i deserve to be left alone.



God, take me to heaven
or Devils, to hell we go.







i've tried so hard
and got so far
in the end
it doesnt even matter


that smile was never meant to be mine in the first place
now that i know
but it isnt important anymore



the bitter-sweet scent of nothingness
grips my heart.
shattered pieces of it scattered all around,
like pieces of wastepaper that litters Lonely Street's pathway.

whispered goodbye

and she got on a plane

never to return again

but always in my heart

pick me up now

i need you so bad

baring my soul
at 11:17 PM