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Sunday, April 30, 2006

for the day i die


i'm a wasted piece of shit. an absolute embarrassment, and a burden to others. i was so wasted last night, i sat outside zouk/phuture alone, with my head spinning, puffing cancer sticks like a smoke machine. eventually, puking my lungs out. i forgot what happened after that, but i was told, for the first time in 3 years, i broke down in front of the swimmers and i think i really shocked all of them. other than cheaps and wei of course. 'she's probably not so care-free afterall' i'm sure thats what all of them think of me now. damn.

i'm fine now, i really am.

phong is gone now, back to thai. i'm gonna miss that huge, kind and loveable frankenstin.i love the swimmers. jj, ko, ming, sim, phong, cheaps and wei. people who will never turn their back on you. people who wouldnt stand 20m away from you despite the stinging stench of puke. instead, sitting right beside you to cuddle you, maybe it mightn be true, telling you that everything's gonna be okay. constantly checking if you are alright when you're slumped against the chair in phuture. where do you find such buddies? never. but i did.

the long weekend's gonna be over soon. another new week is coming. i dont know how long i'mma be in this mood(i dont know what kinda mood i'm in though). i hope it'll go away soon.


i'd love to think that you love it too



i'mma touch the sky

baring my soul
at 8:36 PM