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Friday, June 30, 2006

it comes as we know


it isnt WorldCup thats why i'm still awake at this hour, but its the fact that its getting harder and harder to fall asleep as days go by. honestly, i feel extremely exhausted, yet i refuse to let my eyes shut tight. is this considered self-torture? if it is, i swear it isnt deliberate.

everything happened in a flash, till this point in time, i'm still trying very hard to digest. the whole gang of us have been cancelling all our appointments, rearranging our schedules to ensure that we all can accompany CS through this difficult period. it was so sudden, so uncalled of. everyone was so unprepared, so lost. when i received the phone call from peck, i was so shocked, i sat in the dark on m bed for a full whole ten minutes, just having a blank mind, staring into space. only after she called back to explain how everything happened, i felt like crap. when my good friend was in such a lost state, there i was at home, sulking about unnecessary and unimportant issues, and the rest of them were there for him. i still feel so horrid now, i wonder if i'm really that selfish. i just hope everything will be fine, though i know, somehow or rather, it will never be the same again. uncle low, may you rest in peace, and please bless your family, especially CS, to be strong enough to tide through life without you.

time's running out. i just realise today, as much as i hate to admit it, i've really gotta start clearing up stuff and getting everything else settled. i really wonder how will it feel like having white/plastic sheets pulled over my furniture. will i miss my small little cosy island more than i think i will? will you miss me as much as i always had? i think i should really shut the fuck up(courtesy of Lim JJ).


twenty-nine lives just isnt enough to erase it all away


yet it leaves as it flows

baring my soul
at 3:34 AM