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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

in my opinion seeing is knowing

what does it mean when you've tried so hard, yet you fail so badly? does it mean that i've not tried hard enough or is it that i've did it in the wrong way, or is it just luck that is playing a fool out of me? i'm getting alittle exhausted out of all these attempts of wanting to suceed but nothing comes out of it.

how does it feel to breathe and celebrate victory but you've no contribution to it at all? if you want to know, i'll tell you. it suck. it digs you out from inside, and it mocks at you for being so useless, yet you try to gain glory through others' capability and effort. what are you?

are all these signs of rejections? i believe its too late to surface right now. its far too late. it cant be happening now, no, not at this time.

god, why do i feel like crap now. is it just a passing phase or is this just the beginning? please take this feeling away. and please make the 'monthly affair' hurt lesser. its killing me inside and out.

please tell me i'll be alright once again


the things we hold are always the first to go

baring my soul
at 1:09 AM