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Sunday, September 17, 2006

just look to the rainbow and you will see

i find it so amusing to have a 20 minute conversation with my dad, chatting with him like a friend, only after 19 years of my life? how much time have i wasted, how much i've lost out not conversing with my dad in proper? am i just trying to act as if i'm extremely close to my dad but in actual fact i'm not? or am i just trying to cover up the fact that i'm not all that pysched up about my life here and i dont wish to upset or worry my old man.

and when i look up from my laptop screen and i see the small ornament my sweet dad gave me which says "Always my daughter, now too my friend", it makes me crumble up inside. i just want you make you smile with pride dad, really.and this makes me start to miss him. i hate to pretend, but honestly, i always look forward to talk to him, somehow.

is it true that you'll only miss it when its gone? i dont think it works so well for me, cause i treasured it when i had it, and it only makes it all worse, cause dont know why i've lost it. what's there left for me to fall back on? it would be nicer if you'd tell me.


goodnight to you


the sun will shine till eternity

baring my soul
at 3:39 AM