ABOUT ME

Thursday, September 07, 2006

over the hedge

i wonder if long drives still make you think of me, but i'm certain they remind me of you. not that i really want to, i cant help it, i've tried, really. i couldnt help thinking of the things we used to do, on the way home from the airport. i tried sleeping so i wouldnt drift off into my own world, yet i couldnt keep my eyes shut, they way i have always been hoping to open yours, sad but true, neither could i.

i've quite forgotten the way we used to cuddle together during naps, the way you hug me from behind whenever i solve math, chemistry or chinese questions for you. did i ever tell you, i absolutely love that. i cant remember how it feels to receive texts first thing in the morning or last thing at night, and end up smiling to myself like a lunatic. all these make you seem so far away from me, yet so near.

i dont actually know why i'm typing all these. probably the endless rushing of assignment and trying to study for my mid-sems is driving me alittle insane, or is it that i'm just getting too emotional for my own good. i've been pondering about the letter i've written to you, and the one you wrote to me, almost a year from now. doesnt seem that long, does it? surprisingly, it is.the way it surprises me how long have we been apart from each other. and i'm really unsure if i want your reply or do i not want it at all. i've just been wanting to say that if you're not happy, jusy come back to me.

as i opened my eyes after an unsuccessful attempt in trying to call asleep in the car. i gazed at the person resting soundly and contentedly against my shoulder. as much as i wished it was you, it wasnt. ever knew how it felt like ripping your own heart out to bleed? i experienced that feeling that very moment. you're so far away, so far away.

i'm sorry, i guess i just miss you, though i dont mean to.

back to my coffee and paul crompton.


long gone


and around back down

baring my soul
at 2:49 AM