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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

heaven bent to take my hand

do you find yourself wondering why you do the things you do? when you think that what you do is correct, but you gradually start to doubt yourself. then who is going to be there to tell you that what you're doing is wrong. what else is left to say when nothing said can ever change your mind? after the whole ordeal, you then decide that convincing yourself that you've been right all along is the best choice.

though the iTunes is blasting into my ears through the earphones, i'm shivering inside. the silence is killing me. i find myself too exhausted to utter a single word, yet i think i'm too timid to sleep. what could be a better thing to warm me up, cause the heater isnt working the way it should.

i wonder what is it like to put yourself on the line. the feeling of dangling in mid-air, the feeling of not knowing what will happen next, the possiblilty of dropping down and never coming up. it is the risks you take which make you learn new things, its the pain which makes you learn to be careful, its the fear which makes you sensible. then i why am i still the way i am?

to all those who have suffered immensely from heart pangs, i pray for you tonight. sometimes i wish i could love you more than i already do, to love you more than myself.


as tears shatter their way through


lead me through the fire

baring my soul
at 3:13 AM