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Friday, April 27, 2007

what you feel is what you are

'are you happy now?' a i'm-not-sure-if-its-random question my special friend asked me just a while ago. as much as i thought that it'd being an easy question to answer, i found myself stumbling upon my own answer. so the answer i settled for, was 'there's nothing for me to be unhappy about now. stable life, my friends and family to love, school and every other thing.' but do you realise that there's some thing missing? some thing that i no longer know how to fill it in with, some thing that i can no longer feel its existence. something that doesnt belong to me anymore.

i was, once again, having a heart-to-heart chat with someone close to heart, and it made me realise that you actually do a lot of things you never thought you would. unconsciously, you make mistakes that are so apparent to people around you, it makes you look like a fool. and no matter how unintentional it is, you are still at fault. and i wonder, how oblivious can one get, and you'll be surprised by the answer, i'm serious.

i'm venturing into something i've never done in my life. i'm uncertain about the process,least to say the outcome, but i'll clench my fist and brave through that. i can say, i'm amazed by my guts sometimes. then again, i admire other's even more.


one day when i'm gone, i hope you'd know, i'm still in love with the you, who could never find the courage to have a change of heart.


and what you are is beautiful

baring my soul
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