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Wednesday, May 09, 2007

for a life that would never be

how many out there would choose to pour your heart to someone you barely know, instead of those you see almost every second. to let those who are hardly there, know the things that have been kept within you for the longest time. surprisingly, most of the time, these random souls seem to get it better. look at it this way, arent your parents the people you see almost everyday? but why do you choose to tell those so-called 'friends' whom may not understand you the way your parents do, at the tip of their fingers (a very shallow example, no doubt).

with mother's day around the corner, everyone is hyped up about getting little, simple cards to post back home to their mums. some even come up with ridiculous ideas like getting people to deliver flowers to their mums. not wanting to be labelled unfilial, i decided to join the trend. i decided that i should psyc myself up into the idea of filling up the card as much as i can. how pathetic does that sound? well, i eventually did come around to writing the card, and to my surprise, i actually wrote with such fluency, i never thought i would have. to make full use of the card, i dedicated small parts of the card for dad and brother. as i sealed the envelop with all the love i could muster, whilst penning the address down, then a sudden wave of sadness hit me. it is only at that moment, when i realise how much i miss them, and how damnit far i am away from everything i know as 'home'. it pangs me so much, i found myself close to tears.


I love her simply because I found her irresistible.
I knew to my sorrow, often and often, if not always,
that I loved her against reason, against promise, against
all discouragement that could be. Once for all; I love her
none the less because I knew it, and it had no more
influence in restraining me, than if I had devoutly
believed her to be human perfection.
-Pip, Great Expectations-


we should all say goodbye

baring my soul
at 2:26 AM