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Thursday, July 05, 2007

waiting like an iceberg

i find myself laughing at my stupidity quite often. so often, it makes me puzzled. i ask myself if i really know what's going on, i find myself stumbling over the answer. my life isnt in a mess, it just doesnt fit in the right way. my mind isnt in a whirl-wind twirl, it just needs to be put into place.

age isnt scary, growing older isnt a curse. that's just because no matter how many times your age increases over a short span of time, life still goes on, so what's with the hoo-haas over 21st birthday parties? isnt 21 the same as 12 and 51? its all the same. it just marks you a step closer to the end of time. how many steps will i ultimately have to take? how interesting is it if you were to know that.

i wonder if i'm the only one feeling this way, or are those who go through what i am and will be going through for the next few years, feel the same way too. its that blank thought and empty feeling, and that mixed feeling of which place should i call home. i cant quite put my finger to it, and making sure which one am i looking forward to being in, cause when i'm in one, i want the other one. am i making sense at all?

as the fire fades away, most of everyday is filled with tired excuses. its too hard to take, i wish it was simple, but we all give up easily. you're close enough to seet that, you're on the other side of the world to me. in a place i neither know, nor feel. you fade away so quickly, i cant remember your face. but my heart still beats and resonant your name. can you please help me, can you let me go. can you love me when you cant see me anymore? can you still feel me when you cant speak of me at all? before the thread tears into shredded pieces, we should all take a step back and a deep breath.


all the muscles tighten on her face


she wants to be like water

baring my soul
at 3:44 PM